i'm-CY

Blabbering.

2010-07-16T05:45:00.000-07:00

It's been a while since I've posted anything decent.

Since then I've a lil' more experience in life.

The content i've learned is certainly not 100% correct

Therefore feel free to call me up for a chat.

Ok here goes,

One very important thing i learned,

IS, your mindset.

And yes, it is POSITIVE thinking.

Some people have problems just thinking "I can do this."
I'm not saying that i can do it everytime.
But it is what we should try.

I've seen some people tackle a task with "Imma gonna haz failz" attitude.
Affecting their actual RESULT.

A potential A skyfalls into a C.

I've learned that mindset is a powerful thing.

You achieve a lot more.
You have confidence in your ability.

and that "I'm on top of the world" feeling after you've gotten your expected, good result.
When you have the "I'll do it" mindset, 2 things are most likely to happen
A-You've achieved your goal.
B-You didn't achieve your goal.

In case of A- don't ever say "This is enough", nothing is ever enough. This is natural people's greed. Achieve more, do more, earn more, be more.

In case of B- It happened to my geography. I was like "okay, i know i can get an A on this". Turns out its between a B and a C. Disappointed yes, give up? HECK NO! I said to myself "I'll get better next time, positive."

It's all about looking forward, having a casual disregard for faults, and just move on. It's life, and you shouldn't be left behind.

Equilibrium.

2010-05-12T06:58:00.000-07:00

Life brings joy and sorrow,

love and hate,

friends and enemies,

peace and war.

The point being that life brings many many things.

possibly and infinite amount of things.

But to every life, i believe that there is a balance.

a scale of balance for both large and small alike.

these balances exist in equilibrium.

Thousands and thousands of factors exist to thwart this balance,

down to every little aspect of every little thing.

Ranging from psychological influence

to emotions

to efficiency at work.

If the balance is...well...unbalanced.

Then i think there is a cost, a fine to pay to reset the balance.

This may be a cost of friendship,

career,

or emotions.

Karma greatly upsets this balance,(from personal experience)

Especially from "flaming" people.

From a few weeks of heavy harassment,

my relationships with friends deteriorated.

i have learnt my lesson,

life is a delicate thing.

Life can give you all your dreams' desires,

and can take away all that you have ever dreamed of.

Life can always be a struggle,

Life is a game, your game, you play it however you like,

but limitation is key.

Life is a thousand switches on a wall,

which trigger shall it be to open the next door?

And the next, and the next

and the next.

Life cannot be categorized, life is life on its own.

From one event to another in life, there is always a test,

a test by life.

To me, life is both a blessing and a curse,

when i think about it,

all those awesome friends i have,

the wonderful people that are my friends,

adds up to all that misery life has thrown at me.

In life, i believe the only god is ourselves,

every living thing can make a difference,

every soul can cast inspiration,

every move will make a difference.

So...choose wisely what your next move is.

Do not do something rash.

you cannot expect what life will give you,

but anticipate the moment of what you give life.

Anticipation brings hope

and hope brings motivation

motivation brings effort

and effort yields result.

I cant emphasis this more,

everything we do affect everything that will happen.

The past changes the present and sculpts the future.

Life is hell and heaven itself

2010-03-26T06:15:00.000-07:00

Life is hard.
There are times in life,
Where everything crumbles down.

the building called 'Friendship' will crumble down.

Everything falls apart.

When you find you 'Love' never existed.

When you know that you've been holding onto thin air,

The slightest hope that they'll be holding on.

But all along, i was holding onto a pebble and hanging on a cliff.

When i thought of giving up.

Your image rose up in front of me.

i raised my hand.

Pleading,asking, begging for you friendship,your hope, your help

What did you do?

Slapped my hand away, denied my existence and pushed me down.

What awaits me in this agonizing fall, is a painful death.

With a broken heart and a shattered will.

I still bear hope within you.

That seedling, that i was hoping it would flourish into a magnificent piece.

Had been dug out.

Those memories that took so much time to create.

Was burned.

And with that i lost you.

I wished, i hoped, i prayed, and i pushed aside so many things.

with just that hope that this time.

"Nothing lasts forever" wouldn't reach our friendship.

And all i did, was speeding up that process.

Nothing does last forever.

I learnt that HOPE, is an excuse.

I learnt that FATE has nothing to do with my life.

And i learnt that FRIENDS, True friends.

Will never abandon you.

These past few weeks were an ordeal.

And some part of it was a miracle.

I survived the ordeal and held on tight to the miracle.

And at the very end of all this,

What i was holding on to. Dispersed into the air

Nothing was left, but tears.

Nothing was left, but memories.

And through all that there is something that i truly appreciate,

My life.

Nothing good shall come of it if you don't treat it well.

My teacher once said.

"Life is a road, filled with rocks. The one you pick up is your fate, polish the one you picked.
Let it become an emerald, a sapphire or a shining ruby."

Life will always be yours,

No one has the right to make you suffer,

Nothing has the right to make you cry,

Not even God chooses your decisions for you.

When everything crumbles down,

Those you help you build it up,

Those that helped you through the most excruciating moments.

Guide you when our lost,

and lift you up when you fall.

I lost some of the very most important people to me.

Now, i'm pretty sure they don't care about me.

I lost trust.
I lost hope.

I lost people who were close to me.

And you know what?

We lost each other.

Despair filled my heart,

sorrow pumped through my veins.

And the strangest thing was,

i really don't care.

So be it.

Let me remind you it is MY life.

I'm whiny? Sue me

My little thoughts.

2010-03-20T09:19:00.000-07:00

Life, life life,

Would you believe me? If i said that life, is all about accomplishments.

Think about it. Your exam. Or whatever

You get straight A's-Accomplishment
You get a girlfriend/boyfriend-Accomplishment

Won a game-Accomplishment

What about life ISN'T an accomplishment?!

Right?

Living through it. Judging. Doing something.

Life is your option.

Everything is just rotating around life.
Life's cycle.

It's based on how many accomplishments you contribute to it.

Life to me is a game.

A very fun one.

The rules of the game are to survive.

But the final rule is to die.

Ironic, but very very contradicting.

What happens if you die? The accomplishments?

Well, we never know.
Friends are accomplishments too.

Great friends are rewards.

Best friends are gold.

And the ones that truly care for you are priceless.

Everything in life can be interpreted in many, many different ways.

It just comes down to how you see it.

Even this post is an accomplishment.

See? It all depends on how you see it.

Life truly is amazing.

Or maybe life is a stage.
Maybe,just maybe.

If we die, we move on to another planet.

Start accomplishing there.

And move on. so on.

Life is also like Gravity.

It will always, ALWAYS Pull you down.

And the more you jump up the less energy you have.

What do you do then?

Remove gravity. Think and do outside the box.

Be indifferent, not those stereo types.

That itself is an accomplishment.

I guess what i;m trying to say.

Is to appreciate life.

Life is the worst predicament you could ever dream of.

And also the best of dreams.

Life is an art,
Life is magic,

Life is unpredictable,

Whatever you say,

In the end,

Life, is yours.

Life and it's mischiefs

2010-03-15T06:14:00.000-07:00

Life's getting really really boring lately.

I reversed my hair guys!!! =D

Everything's as usual.

School life is ok

Life is ok

Ryan is seriously perverted.

Friends are...GREAT!
Ryan is seriously perverted.

Yi Guang getting hyped up about the 80m Sprint!
Would like to say good luck to him here.

Good luck!
Oh yeah, Ryan is seriously perverted.

Horizon's week.

Ahhh Horizon's week.

Should i go? We're going kayaking.
Don't know if i should go.

Hmmm.

Ryan is seriously perverted.

5day camp. Unless I'm allowed to bring giant mirror

And my props. Then i'll go

Sigh. Everything is cramped tight in June.
Subang magic parade(Must go)
Exams(Must attend)

Horizon's week("Compulsory")

Oh yes. And. erm. Ryan is seriously perverted.

The student council is organizing a smoothy BAR~
Woooyeah! Shhh (Classified information)

Papaya MILK!!!
Ryan is seriously perverted.

Girls. If you don't listen to me other times it's alright.

Just this time.

Stay away from him.

Please.

Last warning. I cant say anymore than that here.

Now, what say we host a party down at Queensbay on Saturday?!
PARTY!!!

We go, we play, we rock, we awesome!!!

Wooh~

Anyone going just lemme know.

Oh and Shamine. You MUST go this time =D
Good luck and Good day! =D

Life and all it's little tweaks.

2010-02-17T06:33:00.000-08:00

Ahem.

Equivalent exchange does apply to real life as well,

In my life actually.

I treat life as a "Limit gauge"

1 side positive;the other negative

Example if i have a really long,interesting,happy,good conversation with Princess.

Then the gauge goes slightly to the "negative" side.

Which then makes my luck bad and so on.

If my luck keeps getting bad. bad and worse.

Then it goes to the "positive" side.

Then improving my luck

Therefore my life is almost never balanced.

Presumably that or life's just an a**

Today i would like to discuss about the topic- Long/short term

Along with the various benefits and disadvantages.

If you study hard now (Who does leave a comment saying you do)

Then the long term positive effect is that you get good grades,

and good life(or so they say)

Short term effect is that you must study (Booo)

I go by my own rules.

Which are "Studying pays off later, laziness pays off now"

And by the way,breaking rules is quite all right, as long as you do it at the right time.

Oh, and be sure to be predicting outcomes.

Most people don't do this.

Which leads to pathetically stupid actions.

I dont know, maybe throwing some firecrackers at someone's face?

For the excitement and amusement for 5seconds.

That could cause a scar of a lifetime.

PEOPLE ARE VERY SMART THESE DAYS!

Do what i do. Consider everything.

If i studied for an exam. It's only a week or two's hard work.

For the glory for a term.

Definitely worth it.

Or playing games, get addicted, waste time,money,time

*BUZZZ* Duhh. Not worth it.

But you get some entertainment.

Depends on what situation you're in.

Hope this helps in life!

It certainly helps for me.

I'm a responsible,self disciplined nerd.

I'm proud of that.

Who am i kidding!

Enjoy life guys~!

Nothing much

2010-02-06T01:15:00.000-08:00

Hey Guys~
Nothing much to post about.
Just that
Princess,I'm sorry.

By now the storm is passing by and a tornado is coming.

Haha.
Apparently, Ruka's leaving to Japan
Fortunately not so soon.
=)
All of my relationships with other people are somewhat going through something difficult.
Most of us can't cope with it.
Sigh.

Even i.

I ended up making the princess angry (>.<)
The others, well, aren't going smoothly either.
My good friend confessed to p*******
What.The.Heck?
Major confusion there.

SIGH.

Oh well, There's a new guy in our school.

Very VERY sick.

Mentally sick by the way.

very retarded,sick,disgusting so on.

Feel like beating him up.
SIGH again.
I'm still stuck in the middle and i plan to just be there.

Social network's virus

Been training a lot recently and hoping to achieve a certain level.

The stage charisma thing's not working out though.

Sigh.

I think i'm going to start working on parasols~
Parasols, doves,cards.

In a few years time that is.

Anyways. Cheer up RUKA! Princess!
Don't get sad or i will.

Not to mention a few other really close friends of mine.
GRACE!!!!!!

Get over your STALE-ness!

Live long! Live good and Live the way you want to!!!

It's Magical

2010-01-30T20:11:00.000-08:00

Hey!

The performance on 28th of Jan is by far the best i had.

The stage.

The lights.

The audience.

The applause.

The "Congrats!" "GREAT!"

Leaves me with such strong desire to perform again.

Ahh!

I love this feeling.

Don't worry guys.

Video coming soon.

The performance itself was overall great.

Some parts i wished never happened though.

Haha. And THANKS guys for supporting me all the way.

Before the performance i was so nervous.

But my awesome friends encouraged me.

Yeah,good times.

So happy AFTER the performance.

Applause was awesome i have to say.

Charity shows coming up very soon.

Hope I'll enjoy it.

Learnt some GREAT things these few months.

-Don't let the cards control you. YOU control the cards.
-If you want to make the audience happy. Be happy yourself!

Very true.

Thanks fellow brothers in magic!

Anyways.

Sorry Princess for then late messages.

And a few trouble makers in school were making fun of my performance!

We all know it was great.

Why the jealousy?

There was even a MAGICIAN.

That guy, i never liked him.

Too damn proud for his own good.

"Hey i got new deck adi! Nice ar!"

"Look at this new awesome deck man!"

I mean who cares what deck you have?

As magician you need skill not deck.

Everyone has can have a nice looking deck but only magicians have the skill to use it.

Pfft, Lowlifes.

Oh yeah, There was one guy. very short. Acting like delinquent.

And he thought me and Chin Woon were dating.

And he got really jealous.

And tried to spread some really bad rumors about my show.

Yes, Exactly, Lowlifes.

The performance got better results than i had expected.

Now i can get gigs easier.

Awesome!

Anyways have a magical life boys and girls~

Mercury

2010-01-11T04:43:00.000-08:00

Today. Is an ordinary day.
The special thing today happened at science period.
We were going around the school taking temperatures around various places lalala.
But some wise guy decided to run and push people.
I got pushed and the thermometer fell down and i heard a crack.
After some noise and people staring at me as if i was a psychopath holding a broken thermometer and swinging it around as if it was a toy.
Well,
At that time it was partially true.
But then i realized silver-ish liquid was all over the floor

And now

The citizens of atlantis were gazing into the shiny liquid of doom.
Which was known as mercury.
And the savior of the citizens was no other than King Sand .
Ok, back to reality.
Anyway as i was getting more sand and warning people about the area.
I was saying to my friend
"I hope there aren't any people stupid enough to play with the mercury.
i spoke too soon.
I saw someone stepping on it.

I was like...
"OMG!"
I spoke too soon.
By the way.
Mercury is a sexist.
It affects males more than females.
The male reproductive organ shall perish into the nether plains and be forever lost.
And i could care less about the other one.
Nothing happens to them as far as i know.
BOO!!

Source,process and product.

2009-12-31T06:54:00.000-08:00

As a New Year's gift to *tooot*
I will talk about the topic, Source, Process and Product.
To me, This is a very interesting topic indeed.
Source refers to the start of the cycle.
Process is the process of the cycle.(what if undergoes)
And the product is the final result of it.
Take an example.
*TEACHER GIVING HOMEWORK*
Now.
The teacher is the source of the homework.
Teacher instructs his/her students to finish the work.
Process being the students starting,working on, and finishing the assignment.
And Product is the "passing-up" of the work.
And thus this cycle continues
Now, which do you think is the Most important?
Source?
Process?
Or Product?

They're equally important.
Let's look at it this way.
If you did not pass up your work.
Thus, ruining the cycle.
You could be punished.
And the final product would be nothing.

Another example.
"Student-teacher"
A student is the source.
A student studies and his ambition is to be a teacher.
The process is that he studies hard.
Gone through all that bla bla bla and yadah yadah yadah.
And the final product is a teacher.
Then a teacher TEACHES a student.
Student learns and goes through bla bla bla and god knows how much stuff.
End result is that he becomes what he wants.
And let's say.....business manager.
He is successful and helps the economy moving.
Which then helps by getting the world economy moving and helps lots of lives.
And so on.

This is a cycle that leads to another.
I'm sure you all get is thus far.
Getting to know his cycle better may help you manipulate events for better or for worse.
Lets get back to the homework example
You can manipulate this by taking advantage of the process part.
Example.......asking for help. (NOT COPY)
And you still get your product with less effort.
(NoTe-EXAMPLE)

This understanding has always helped me through a lot of events.
Its not philosophical or anything.
It helped me and i want this understanding to help you.

Existence?

2009-12-29T08:32:00.000-08:00

There are many views upon human life.
And even more questions to follow.
For example. Why do we exist?
There are many advantages and disadvantages that follow our existence.
Think about it. The resources of planet Earth is being drained up.

Every last bit will be sucked and used.
And the animals.
Mankind has been butchering these animals for as long as human history remembers.
And if you think about it personally.
What is life for?

You work and work and work and work.
And lets say that until one day.
You own a very successful business.
But then you were driving home.
And a bus hit you and you're dead.
All that work and effort gone in just a few seconds possibly.
And think,
What is life for?
You live through all the pain. and all the happiness.
Think how can you think.
Why can you think?

Why does your body listen to you.
Why does time go on.
Why can your eyes see?

How does your organs work?
Everything about life.
Humans are indeed selfish beings.
We appoint ourselves as king.
And thus create our own rules.

Have you thought about.
What is personality?
A personality comes from a soul.
What is a soul?

Only God knows.
Just something to think about.
all these things in life.
What are they?
I've always wanted to know this.
What exactly is the purpose of my existence.
What can i do?
What will i do?

Where will i be?
And thus pathetically confusing myself.
What will happen to our souls if our bodies die?
These are all questions I've been asking myself and failed to answer them.
Understanding life has been a hard task.
And what if this all was a dream?
ALL of this.
Our lives.
Our family
And when we die we wake up to our "REAL" selves
Or if we were only being controlled by other beings.
Simply just being they're toy.
And now something to play with. Think about our Galaxy
And now, think of the end of the galaxy.
Space is believed to be infinite.

there is an end to everything.
So where is the end of the space?
Maybe its just like a cube and there's a sign saying "Dead end"
I still want to know.
Why do all of us exist?
What is our purpose?
Maybe we're just food for some idiotically big alien.
Who knows?
This is life.

Really wierd

2009-12-29T08:24:00.000-08:00

Ok, today i was practising a coin vanish.

I was practising as usual.

Talking to myself.

Alone in a room.

With the music and everything.

But today's practise session was really really weird.

Because i was practising,

And i vanished the coin.

And followed on by the rest of the simple routine.

I kept practising.

And then when i vanished the coin.

It was REALLY vanished.

Like GONE.

I was blurred for quite a while.

But i thought that the coin might magically fall into my coat or pocket

(it IS magic after all)

And it wasn't anywhere.

I searched everywhere.

It was nowhere to be found.

I have magic powers! =D

Performance

2009-12-12T07:01:00.000-08:00

The feeling right after a great performance is just awesome.

Today's performance went really well.

The audience was amazed. Their expression said it all =D
It was amazing

Although. The person that invited me gave me wrong info.
So i had to improvise with the things i had.
Which was very limited at time.
Every table i go to.
More and more people would come to join in.
The word WOW.
Made me feel so happy.
The reason i learn magic is just to entertain.
And when i hear the audience clapping.
A smile and their faces.
It makes me very happy.
Because i know that i have done what i should have.
Magic is just amazing.
I want it to be my life.
I just love it!!!

~KL~

2009-12-11T02:09:00.000-08:00

2nd trip to KL~
Very tiring.
Wake up at 6.30~
Leave at 7
4hour trip TO KL
Another 4 back.
Phew...
Really tired
I just got back...
Didnt sleep at all in the car.
Although it was really comfortable and i regret not sleeping.
Sigh.
Want to sleep now~
But i cant.

Gathering later.
Woooo
Well, KL was much better than Bukit Mertajam.
MUCH!
The streets were full of people...
Perfect for some close-up.
Haha
And thus my life.

~YO~

2009-12-08T07:29:00.000-08:00

Hey people~

Been a long while since I updated my bloggie~

So busy these days.

Its either gaming or practising.
Now I'm creating a little flourish routine.
After that its Ambitious Ambitious Ambitious.
How are you guys?
And by the way, Keep going SPMers
Its only till DEC14 and 1 subject left~
After that it's party party party~
Care to invite me?
I certainly would like to be invited.
Life just packs ups and downs guys/girls
Those who can overcome that will live a successful life.
Ya'know...Its holidays and life is really boring for me.

INTERNAL INJURY!

2009-10-16T00:58:00.000-07:00

I have an INJURY
Internal INJURY
Internal INJURY is when you injured your body...INSIDE your body
So that is why it is called...internal INJURY
I know i know...
Don't you all just love to see me in pain?
Wish i had internal bleeding?

Guessed so
Sigh
It is ok
I am going to survive..

i know is bad news for you...
i got it when we were having P.E class
Some fat guy tripped me and i fell
He fell too
fortunately his knee totally crushed my ribs...

That is why i have internal INJURY
IT REALLY HURTS!
Enjoy my pain while it lasts...

~WooHoo~

2009-10-16T00:55:00.000-07:00

WooooAhhhhh
Weeeeee
I lost 2Kgs~

HAHAHAHAHA
I am happy~
You know why?
I bet you don't...Haha
HAHAHAHAHA...
I am on a diet~
You know why?

I AM FAT!
After 2weeks of diet-ing
Weeee

Yo~

2009-10-02T03:05:00.000-07:00

Yo im back guys~
Hope you all miss me!
Finally can get internet up and running...but it's internet explorer8
So it is sooooooo laggy~
LALALA
Boring.....
My life is dull
My life is boring
My life is dull and boring...
Sigh...

My life is black and white
My life is like a banana in the sea...
If only i knew what that meant...
hahahaha

LOL
Z

K thats all for now...
LALALA

Show in November~

2009-09-01T05:30:00.000-07:00

Woo
My 1st Show is in November...
Earlier than i had expected...
Im Trying to practice as hard as i can~
Hopefully the show would not be as bad as i would imagine
The worst case scenario will be that aliens invade our school in search of penguins
Sigh

I think my limbs would fall off...
As soon i get on the stage
Wow.
Im getting used to this~ WAHAHAHA~
Blisters and everything
Still need someone to help us pick up cards...
HAHA
Better master my cards 1st
Or else i would waste my partners time
And my "coaches"
haha

Best of luck to me and my partner wahaha~
Thanks ya
But If you want to visit my school on the day of performance
And make me more nervous than i already am
Please do so
Contact me by MSN
cy_ang0919@hotmail.com
WAHAHA~
Thanks ya~

Magician's Code

2009-09-01T05:16:00.000-07:00

A magician's code is to NEVER reveal the secrets behind magic.
Once you do.
Its NOT magic anymore
Magic is something to love
It IS something to entertain you
Why in the right mind would someone go and expose it?
Sigh
Unfortunately.
Most people learn magic just to know the secrets.
1thing abou magic
Knowing the secret is far from performing
All you "exposers" have totally no idea how much time and effort we use to perfect our routines
Sigh...
The world is cruel to magic
Magic is a passion same as any other hobby
Dont ruin it for your interest.
Revealing a trick is like revealing a magician's naked body
And that is NOT nice
Please?
Nowadays tehre are even SHOWS!!!
1 Hour SHOWS!!!!
Ugh
Im not going to tell you what show
Even if you DO know it!
Best of luck to all magicians!!!!!
Keep up the awesome routines!!!
When i was not as good as i am now.
I always wanted to know the secret
Now i know why they did not tell me
Get it?
Try seeing magic from OUR Point of view please
We do NOT work our A** mastering routines just to let you expose it!!!
Often when you see a guy performing magic...
You will often get a "WOW" effect at the end
But when you know the secret
Its "I know this already LAH!"
See?
Magic doesnt entertain you if you expose it
the effect is ridiculously reduced to nothing...
After all that hard work...
Sigh...
Well..

I overrected a few times and now im fine...
Haha

1st performance

2009-08-29T20:23:00.000-07:00

Phew...finally...
wanna know what??
Im finally going to be able to perform...
this December..
At least it will be great experience for me...
Hopefully...
The routine, plot/plan will be thought up soon.
Not to mention music...
Hmm...
Im nervous just thinking about it
Glad i have friends to support me

Although...
There is abt 3/4months to practice...
It IS a little hard...since its my 1st performance
WHat if i screw up?
What if there is not enough time to practice?
Ugh...
So many things to consider
So many things to master
So many things perfect.......
Btw, if i do a drama-romance
Will "secret admired" think im no longer available?
Or not take much interest in me??
hahahahahahaha
It IS a possibilty
SIGH...
STRESSED OUT LIFE!!!
btw i WILL try to get a video for you all.
Hope u like it...next year...
Need routine~
Need Show music
Need plot and plan
Ugh!!!!

My sis

2009-08-29T00:41:00.000-07:00

My Cute little Sis~~
HAHAHAHAHA
HOHOHOHOHO

2009-08-28T09:43:00.000-07:00

The gathering tonight~ HoHoHoLengzai 1
Lengzai 2
Gathering stuff~
Including McD
WE SUPPORT MCD!!!

Stop!

2009-08-28T09:34:00.000-07:00

I think i should stop posting about her...right?
RIGHT!!!
What should i blog about?
The only thing that i can think about is her
My day is as bright as a D-lite when she is in my mind
she is as perfect as a 1-handed S-fan
All my routines and inspirations are from her
Coin routines are nothing compared to her
A cigar routine MIGHT be able to compare to her though...
But not as good as a card manipulation stage act...
Coin away might attract her attention...
im not sure,
to be safe im using fire wallet and a close-up card routine...
appearing cane cant be used in close-up (duhh)
Tarantula will be my rose
2 one-handed-S-fans will be my proposal
FISM hall will be the place i go on a date

I know...its all a big WTF?!
But thats my life~ XD

Mixture

2009-08-27T05:29:00.001-07:00

Theres a mixture...

a blend

a mix

a combination

of...

stupid emotions

Happiness and sadness

opposing emotions

Sigh
i think...

i dont know

i think...

im a sad little boy

sigh

i cant do anything right

How do i expect her to even notice me??

i cant

sigh

More updates tommorow...

im thinking too much

Lovesick

2009-08-27T01:29:00.000-07:00

Sigh
love is cruel
Sighs
I saw her at school
Sigh
Had nothing to say to her
Sigh
She didnt even notice me though
Sighs
But for now,
Just seeing her is enough
Looking at her sweet smile
Bightens up my pathetic life
Well
I guess i cant wish for too much...
Can I?
It feels sad.
Yet just seeing her makes me happy
I really dont get love.
And i never will

In love.........

2009-08-26T02:38:00.000-07:00

I think i am in love....
Sweet Sweet love
Seriously
My heart beats fast when i think of her...
Hmmm...
I dont get it...
I used to have no interest in these things at all
And now im in love?
Or is this just my mind playing tricks on me?
Sigh...
At least let us be friends?
PLease?
Sigh....
I think of her...
Everynight and day...
Though this is not me...
It is not my personality
I cant be this way...
Can i?
Should i?
When i think of it...I really should not...
Thinking of her sweet smile...

She sad "Hi" to me!!!!
Thats like so cool!!!!!!
Hmm...
SHE SAID HI!!!! TO ME!!!!
Point is she noticed me...
the usually un-noticable me...
Sigh...
Does that mean she wants to be friends??
Im thinking too much
Lol
Ever since school...
This is all i have been thinking of...
I cant concentrate on anything
Darn...
My heart beats really fast whn i think about her...
HELP!!!
I really want her and me to be friends...
Is that possible?
Sigh
Help?

YoYoYoYoYo

2009-08-25T23:10:00.000-07:00

i discovered a secret.
A secret.
That will change my life!!!
YOU WANNA KNOW?
Im to excited...
Im passing out~
*pass out*

*wake up*
Yo im back...hmm
I forgot wad i wanted to say...
Hmm
what was it? oh yeah...

PENGUIN

School starts

2009-08-24T04:38:00.000-07:00

I think its wierd...
Really really wierd...
Do you want to know what it is?
Really?
I wont tell you...
On second thought............
Hmmm..
Do you really want to know?
Guessed not..

You changed your mind?
YAY!!!
Im still not telling... XD
FINE
If you're begging me to
Oh I see...
Your mocking me arent you?!
Punks!
ok I'LL TELL YOU
Dont Kill me...
PLEASE~!~!~
Im begging you now...see??
School is starting...
And my friend'c schools are holiday-ing
SERIOUSLY!!!
Stupid timing...
KAKA!!!

Blar Blar Bom!

BLEED!!!!

2009-08-23T07:51:00.001-07:00

~Nose Bleed~
Drip

Drip

Drip

Drip

Drip

WEEEEEEE~
Blood!!!!
Drip By drip
Slowly Dripping
Drip
Drip
Drippedy Drip
WEEEEEEEEEEE~
More Blood~

~WOOT WOOT~
Happy Bleeding you all!

~My sweetheat~

2009-08-23T06:42:00.001-07:00

Hi ya'll~
I've been thinking...
About.

About.
Double About.
Triple About.
Hmm...about my sweetheart...
I really miss her...
Really, i DO.
Wish i could see her.
At least 1 more time
Please?
Would you grant my wish?
Im so lonely now...
Theres No one speacial in my life
Except for family and friends that is
Sigh
Miss her.

I wish
I wish
I wish
THAT I HAD A SWEETHEART

NOT...
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
IM crazy thx~
BWAHAHA~

~Blar blar Blar~

I'll always be with you all.

2009-08-21T07:16:00.000-07:00

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ I LOVE YOU ALL MY FRIENDS!!!!!!!!
(espeacially ALL my Form5 friends)

This Post is only but a fragment of what i really feel for them
(I AM NOT CRAZY...FOR NOW)

Ever since i met you all.
My life has changed from being a sorry emo-ish guy
To the stupid emo-ish guy i am now...
(nahhhhhhhh)

Actually,i really do owe you guys ALOT!!!
A LOT more than you would imagine
Of course there is ups and downs
But Thats just life
And im not going to let that get in my way

You all help me get through my pathetic excuse for a life so much.
I really do love you all

Darn,i feel like crying thinking back.
I will always want to be with you all...my friends...

I shall do everything i can to repay you all,although i think its going to take me a lifetime for all you've done

Please, If there's anything on your mind...
You can always come to me and share it
Whether its good or bad...
Sunshine or Storm...
Banana or Mango
Charcoal or pie
Banana or mango
I will always try to help you guys out as much as i possibly can

Dont feel like theres no world tommorow
Or there really might not be
I will be sad
Because i cant see you all anymore
Maybe
Just maybe
You all can express whats troubling you...
For better or for the worse...
I'll Try...
To help you
And Cheer you Up

I can never express the deep gratitude i have for you all...
This will be a sign of my feelings for you,my friend..

2009-08-21T02:00:00.001-07:00

I had a freakishly wierd dream. I dreamt that i was on top of a building, A very very tall one. Almost like a clock tower. I was on top of it, the very top. My existence was fading, dying. . .although i didnt feel all that scared. I had hope that it was just a dream,which it was. I was lieing on the ground. Slowing fading away. Then, i whispered my last words, "bye" to the wind. . .and it all ended. At that point my mind said "Finally, the dream has ended" but whn i opened my eyes. Things were not back to normal, in fact. I felt like a was a spirit, wandering around the place where i was born, then to my home. I saw mom, i tried to call out to her. She did not even notice me. I wasn't able to communicate with anyone. Nobody noticed me. Nobodu will... and finally,finally. . . it all ended. i woke up with my head still buzzing around that dream...I thought "was i really not afraid of death? im petrified of the loneliness it seems. and not death." That was a few days ago and i still cant get my mind of it.

Magic is...

2009-08-19T07:46:00.000-07:00

MAGIC is...COOL
AWESOME,
OUSTANDING,
Mind-Boggling,
Visual,
Stunning,
my life,
My world,
My future,
All i think About,
Wierd,
Wonderful,
Breath-taking,
Unbelievable,
REAL,
Everywhere,
Everytime,
Wonderful,
Mind-blowing
Overwhelming.
!Powerful!

Me Me and more of ME

2009-08-19T07:10:00.001-07:00

Yo everyone~ This is my blog and i hope you guys respect my personal space. My name is ChuYang, 13 in the year 2009. The one and only thing i LOVE MOST is MAGIC!!!
Im an ordinary boy, or girl some would put it. I dont really mind though...
I love making friends.
I dont know why i am writing this.
But thats not the point.
The point is.
!I LOVE MAGIC AND BANANA!
And yes, I am deluded and CRAZY
Thats who i am
And im loved for who i am~
Well, not exactly but you'll get the point.
Blar Blar Blar~
Thats all for now pals~